and you wonder why

women are so emotional disturbed..When women fall in love, its with every fiber of our being. We love first with our hearts, then our emotions, then through the spirit of sexual intercourse (sex). It is these three things that open our inner selves to allow the love to flow freely. It doesn't matter, who that man is, what he has done, what he has or has not....WE LOVE HIM... I know personally, after making love to the person I love, I could actually feel the connection of our lovemaking, long after the physical part is completed. This love is eternal, spiritual, forever....

Now, on the flip side of this, I believe some men lack this awareness, which is why they can be with so many different women. Its puzzling for one man to be loved by so many different women, yet there relationship never seems to last. IS IT HER OR IS IT HIM...I ask myself...now here's the answer to that question.... For a woman to be hurt by a man, it takes time. Yes, we see the signals, ignore them at first..then we began to discuss them in small details...waiting for the reaction. See, its the first reaction that we learn...them say, "your too confrontational" now you know a cheat dont want to be confronted. Second, they say, "me dont want to be in a relationship" yet, they have no problem calling when they want sex...

It takes time for a woman to process her feelings, because of the love she has for that individual. I have to ask myself what's different for me? For several years, I've placed other men, (good men) on the back burner, hoping this individual would one day realize how I feel about him. Then, I realize, he already know, but choose to continue his search...ok cool..cause sometimes a person have to experience that the grass is not always greener on the other side. And at the end of there journey, It is I who who've been there...to support you, to talk too, to love you, But I am I any different than the others? Cause a real women will feel the same way...RIGHT!

Then, along with this, I look at what part I played in allowing this to happen...and of course, I played a part...but see there goes that thing call love, because love will allow you to put up with shit, you know aint right. Love will allow you to look pass people flaws and see the goodness in them. Love will convince you, if you wait, hold on, be strong that the love will be reciprocated. Love tells you instead of late night booty calls, it be calls of him saying, "baby, I'm on my way, home, let's go out to dinner" Its love that tells you, he'll love you for who you are, not who he wants you be...I really honor couples who can genuinely say they are IN LOVE,,,that's something to cherish, and protect...some how I believe it is only for the chosen few..

Love,

LOVE


OH, P.S...Love, I'm letting go..cause if this is love, then I'll never be ready for love

Wait.....

A Friend and I was talking, and he quoted this verse to me...Now, let me tell you, I grew up in the Church. Read the Bible and at times my faith is tremendous. But when he quoted this scripture, which I've been thinking about since. It made me realize, where my strength, endurance, zealous and determination has come from. For you see, In my 45 years of life, I've experienced some serious things in my life, abandonment, abuse, addiction, alcoholism (and that's just in the "A" section), where most people would not have dealt with them causing mental damaged. As a counselor I've heard some stories that shed light on my own story...for my past has become my source of life, my reason for living, see, I realize my purpose...and that is to help others over come there obstacles....here's the quote....

"BUT THEY THAT WAIT UPON THE LORD SHALL RENEW THEIR STRENGTH; THEY SHALL MOUNT UP WITH WINGS AS EAGLES; THEY SHALL RUN, AND NOT BE WEARY; AND THEY SHALL WALK, AND NOT FAINT."

Now the verse above that is even more powerful, it says,

"YOU DON'T KNOW, YOU HAVEN'T HEARD, THAT THE EVERLASTING GOD, THE LORD, THE CREATOR OF THE ENDS OF THE EARTH, FAINT NOT NEITHER IS HE WEARY? THERE IS No SEARCHING OF HIS UNDERSTANDING,

HE GIVE POWER TO THE FAINT AND THEM THAT HAVE NO MIGHT HE INCREASE STRENGTH,
EVEN THE YOUTHS SHALL FAINT AND BE WEARY, AND THE YOUNG MEN SHALL UTTERLY FALL:

Now looking at this, makes me realize how I have over come so many obstacles in my life, how I've survived abuse, malice and many other things that need not to be mention...I think we all could look back on our lives and wonder how we've made it through situations and circumstances...I'M NOT PITCHING A RELIGION, just a spiritual aware....its only by our most High strength and wisdom....we've made it this far